My Why Makes me Cry and I couldn’t be happier

Tears are good. They let me know I am growing. I am releasing my emotions.

I always thought that tears were a sign of weakness. I didn’t want to be seen as a crybaby. I wanted to be strong, so I held my tears in.

My first full time boss told me I held my heart on my sleeve, as if that was a bad thing. He bullied me to be stronger. Little did I know back then that living from my heart was the best way to live.

I thought my “why” was to educate parents on being an advocate for their children. I wanted to share my son’s healing journey to provide hope and encouragement to parents whose child was just starting their healing journey.

During a sharing exercise last week, I discovered I had a deeper why. My sister died in a car accident when I was 18 years old; that one event changed my life forever. I became more compassionate. I vowed to live my life to the fullest in her honour. I also learned to push my emotions down, to hold onto my tears.

I was afraid to cry, as I feared once I began crying, I would never stop. I did not know that I needed to cry in order to process my emotions and release them.

My shoulders and neck were heavy, as I felt I had to carry the world on my shoulders. I wanted to be strong. I didn’t want to cry.

How wrong I was. During my empowerment training, I learned how to process my emotions. I learned how freeing it felt to actually just be myself. I no longer had to deny my emotions. I became free.

I lived in the heartache of grief for over 30 years. The pain I carried around with me was unbearable at times and I instinctively protected others from my pain by not letting them get too close to me. I did not want to be a burden. I have now let the tears flow. I have begun to share my story, to share my tears. I am healing my heart.

My new “why” is: I have lived with pain and sadness for most of my life and have finally learned how to release it. I assist women to release the pain from their past in order to achieve the future they desire. Along their journey, they achieve clarity, courage and confidence.

Originally published in Mompreneurs – Canadian Women in Business on September 23, 2016

About the Author

Penny Norkett is a Personal Empowerment Coach and an Inspirational Speaker. Penny has assisted many women around the globe to reconnect with their true authentic power. Penny draws upon her training at the Simply Women Accredited Trainer Institute along with her authentic, positive, and joyful attitude to create a safe environment for her clients. She assists women to manage stress and overwhelm so they can gain clarity, feel confident and step into courage to create a magnificent life with ease and joy.